Do It Scared
I cannot believe that we are almost at the end of the year. It sure has been a long year. Some resolutions were achieved and some weren’t.
One of my biggest goals this year was to start a book club. Anyone who knows me knows I love reading. My love for reading started in my teens. When I was in boarding school and I’d have a weekend at home, my mom would purchase a new book for me every time. It became our routine, I’d come home for the weekend and before dropping me back at boarding school, we would make a pitstop at a bookstore and she would let me pick any book I wanted (provided it was age appropriate).
I love escaping my world even just for a moment through fiction. Immersing myself in a different world through fictional characters. My family knew not to disturb me whenever I was having a moment with a book - I would happily decline going out with my mom and sister just to stay in with a book.
My love for reading almost died in my early 20s due to the hurry and business of life. Between school, work and making time for friends and family, I barely found time for reading unless I was reading academic journals and writing reports (any psych student understands).
It was only recently (last year) that I found my love for reading again after having purchased a kindle (e-reader) and in 2024, I read close to 30 books.
The idea of a book-club was one birthed in prayer. There is nothing I love more than seeing girls (or guys) read - fiction or non-fiction. Reading opens up an entirely different world that you wouldn’t have otherwise been exposed to. You see different perspectives and you get to form your own opinion.
So became the idea of Selah Book Cub & Selah Collective. I shared this vision with one of my close friends at the beginning of the year.
We had a 2025 vision board session at a different city while travelling and the time spent was invigorating, trust me. We had all these elaborate plans and some are still yet to be executed.
My close friend has kept me accountable and most recently has been checking in to see where I’m at with the book-club (Appreciate you so much friend).
I realised that I don’t lack vision, I lack execution. I have grand ideas and so many I have failed to execute.
Fear grips me like a thief in the night. I hate the idea of being perceived online or being known. If it was up to me, I would very much love to live in the dark and still have the ability to execute all the vision lying dormant inside of me. But that is just not possible.
Vision costs.
For those who may not know what Selah means: Selah is a Hebrew word in the Bible. Selah signifies a pause for reflection, a musical interlude, or an elevation of praise. I want this to be a space of quiet. A space to just be without the need for pretence.
I want this to be a sisterhood where we journey life together through shared experiences and shared hobbies.
So I’m doing it scared. Fear has had a hold on me for far too long and I’m choosing to step out.
If you love urban fiction, romantasy fiction, or nonfiction, watch this space for our first bookclub meet :) I’m so excited!
